I know I'm a pretty much a b***h a lot of the time, but I really don't mean to be. I love you so much, and I've tried telling you so often, but it seems you just shrug me off. I don't know if you intend to do it, but it hurts nonetheless. I've always wanted to have an amazing relationship with you, but it seems you've made other plans. And sometimes, when I need you the most, I know you'd much rather be doing other things, like playing The Sims2. So when I just break down and can't handle it anymore, I'm in my most vulnerable state. And I'm not sure if I did anything today to make you mad, other than ask for 30 minutes to spend alone with Ian. Was it really that big a deal that The Sims2 was being slow and freezing? You and I both know that it's tempermental and just DOES that. I know you hate it when I ask you to lighten up, but I haven't done anything wrong (as far as I know). So please stop shrugging me off, it's really starting to hurt. It makes me want to cry whenever you act like this or you act like you don't care. I love you, Amanda, you're my best friend. If you don't feel the same or if you feel I'm just a burden, let me know so I know whether or not I'm making myself believe what I want more than anything. And I'm sure you'll see this, but whatever.
Basically, I'm super confused about you. Stay out of my dreams. Don't look at me. Don't walk past me. I need to recover. THANK YOU.
P.S. Stop being so cute too. And just stop being awesome. I might have to punch you.
Crazy and obsessed,
I'm so sorry about the packages. I hope you know that I wanted to get them to you more than anything. Write soon, I keep hearing bad things happening in Iraq, and it's tearing me apart.
Missing your letters,
Dear Edward Cullen,
Please materialize before my eyes and confess your undying love to me.
Intense hugs and kisses,
Your faithful fangirl.
- Right Now, I Feel:apathetic
- Currently Listening To:Love Like Winter - AFI
Happiness is watching your boss pose two horses so their riders [who are an exremely cute couple] can lean over and kiss, all the while the horses keep moving apart.
[The pictures turned out lovely, though.]
- Right Now, I Feel:bored
I think I'm in love.
Then again, maybe not.
But if you're willing,
Willing to give it a shot,
I'll wait for you.
- Right Now, I Feel:curious
- Currently Listening To:How You Remind Me - Nickelback
I created a new journal, I was just yet to get it all fixed and ready to go.
The setup will be a little bit different, but it will be the same old me. Mostly. Yeah.
Anyway, I might still be updating this one, just not as much. Or maybe I will. I've yet to decide. I'll let you know whether or not I'm killing this one for good.
If you'd like the name of the journal, comment me and let me know, I'd be glad to give it to you.
- Right Now, I Feel:good
I feel strange.
- Right Now, I Feel:weird
- Currently Listening To:The Rock - Amy-Jayne McCabe
For those of you who would like to be in correspondence with me, my email is below. I'm always up for meeting new people, so...fire away!
- Right Now, I Feel:happy
- Currently Listening To:Happy Together - The Turtles
Yesss. This journal is pretty much friends only. If you'd like, you can comment and I'll consider adding you. But don't be too offended if I don't. If you'd still like to contact me, you can instant message me or email me! Just ask for the information.
- Right Now, I Feel:happy
- Currently Listening To:Hanging By a Moment - Lifehouse
Good morning/afternoon everyone!
I've been searching for new people to talk to; I'd like to meet new people. However, it seems that I can never find anyone willing to talk to me. Or the people that I do find just plain scare me. Haha. It's like Myspace all over again! -shudder-
So, if any of you would like to get to know me, go ahead and let me know!
- Right Now, I Feel:tired
- Currently Listening To:Heart Shaped Box - Evanescence